~ A Pastors Doubts ~

Psalm 78:72 (NKJV) ~ So he shepherded them according to
the integrity of his heart, And guided them by the skillfulness of his hands.

If you are a pastor or leader in your church and are committed to following His will and agenda and not your own, you are desperate to know His will. You don’t like being uncertain of His plans because it makes you unsure of yourself. You want to know what He wants you to do. Right?

Uncertainty can come from more than one cause and it is not always a negative condition. If you are a leader whose vision and direction requires constant reinforcement by the Lord, you may feel uncertain because of not hearing God’s constant affirmation.

Take heart, God is a good God and he may be building your stamina and confidence and not necessarily withholding approval. God isn’t neglecting your feelings or your sense of immediate needs, He is taking care of your future needs.

Anything that God does or doesn’t do is for one reason: to get YOU to pursue HIM. God may allow a certain measure of uneasiness or uncertainty to motivate you to search out His new workings and explore His plan.

Sometimes you may feel like God is playing the “Hot or Cold” game with you. He hides a prize in the house and you have to search it out. The only hint you get is a witness in your spirit that you are getting “warmer, warmer, warmer.” Or colder, colder, colder.” Just remember that God is not toying with you. The Giver of every good gift wants the pleasure of helping you find the gifts.

Some of the greatest men in the bible have struggled with this. They have a clear word from the Lord and step out in faith with absolute certainty. Later when things don’t go the way they think they should, they begin searching for  reaffirmation of His word.

Remember John The Baptist? Jesus said there was no greater prophet than he, and yet John went from saying “behold the Lamb of God that takes away the sins of the world”, (John 1:29) to sending two of the disciples to ask Jesus if He was the one or do we look for another? (Luke 7:19)

If John had doubts being the greatest prophet don’t think you are exempt from the same trial. Hold on to the word you KNOW you have received and remember that this may be part of God’s plan in perfecting you as a leader.

James 1:2-4 (NKJV) ~ 2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.

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